Monday, May 14, 2012

Resting, Resting

Even with everything that I have learned over the last year about LOA and about myself and all the changes that have been happening, there are still difficulties in life. There are still frustration. There is still disappointment. There are still issues to overcome. The difference, though, is that I am different. I am recognizing patterns in myself that have been formed over the past 40 years, patterns formed at home with family, at school with teachers and classmates, patterns formed with co-workers, patterns formed with my husband and my son. Some patterns can be good and helpful, like a routine. But other patterns can be harmful, and I'm having to face my own limited beliefs and my own behavior within those patterns because that is all that I can control.

There are a lot of techniques learned in the study of LOA-- meditation, vision boards, journaling, affirmations, and probably more that I just haven't learned about yet. But there has to come a time when you just have to stop and believe. Dreams are coming true. Changes are being made. Looking back over time it's easier to see them. Living through the changes, day after day, we are too close to them. We aren't seeing the forest because we're only seeing the trees right in front of us.

During the church service on Mother's Day there was a song that touched this part of me, the part of me that is still trying so hard to do this right, even as I know there is no "right" way to do anything. These are all just tools, all just ways to feel good, to feel better. But sometimes we just need to be in the moment, right now, and stop trying to "make" something happen. Sometimes we just need to believe. Our blessings are here, right now, and more are coming.

The song is Jesus, I am Resting, Resting. The verse follows:

Simply trusting thee, Lord Jesus, I behold the as thou art.
And thy love so pure, so changeless, satisfies my heart.
Satisfies its deepest longings, meets, supplies its every need.
Compasseth me round with blessings, thine is love indeed.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Finding Joy

I loved this article by Jennifer Grey (Dirty Dancing) from Felicity Huffman's website, all about finding her joy.

Baby Steps Into Joy

She discusses about how she'd always had difficulty learning dance combinations, but now says:

"Now, the only the difference is: I DON’T CARE! I want the best shortcut to JOY..."

Like I mentioned in my earlier post, we want to feel good, or at least better. We want to do what makes us happy and fulfilled. That could be dancing, or exercise, or watching a movie or hanging out with a loved one. There has to be something that brings each of us, in our own way, to joy.

There are lots of things for me. Watching Glee, listening to positive music, writing, playing with the dogs, being in nature. All of these things are shortcuts to joy.

I love how she mentions loving to dance when she was younger, but giving it up because she thought she was "too old."

"And if that weren’t enough, I was more attached to my own limiting belief systems about being “too old” or some such crap than I was attached to my own happiness." (Emphasis mine. Sounds like Jennifer may know a little something about LOA)

She recognized her limiting beliefs about her age and abilities. We all have them. We're too young, too old, too fat, too thin, too broke, have no talent, will never succeed, so what's the point? Let's get to the point where we say as well, we don't care. Doing this makes me happy, and I want to be happy.

What are some of your limiting beliefs? How have you overcome them, or have you?

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

It Only Matters That I Feel Good

I've been reading Good Vibe Blog for some time and finally it hit home.

It's the feeling I'm after, nothing else.

It's not the extended travel. It's not the custom built house. It's not being self-employed. It's not being a writer. It's not having a flexible job. 

It's what I believe those things will feel like. And if I focus on feeling good now, feeling those feelings now, then I don't have to worry about the how, what, where, when and why. They will all come with time.

It has finally sunken in :)

So where does that leave affirmations, visualizing, my white board, journaling, specific things I do want?

If those things feel good to do, then I will do them. And I will appreciate what I already have and know that other things will come to me at the right time. There is nothing I need to "do" to receive these things except feel good.

What about action? I mean, don't I need to do something to receive something? If I want to earn a living as a writer, I need to write and get something out there, right? Won't that take work and time and commitment? 

Well, my first short story that sold was written on inspiration within half an hour. It sold on my first submission. So when inspired to take action, I will do so. This may mean working on something new or something old. It also means, for me, setting aside time each day for projects. The only difference is that whatever I work on that day can't feel like a chore or yet more work to do. 

My husband says I have too many projects going right now. I have at least four projects. But I enjoy them all. I don't want to stop working on any of them. And I don't have to. They all make me feel good. And if the attention on the projects has an ebb and flow, that's okay too.  It's when I'm trying to work on the projects and get grumpy
and irritable when I need to stop working on them and take a break, and I need to be able to recognize that. Then projects become a chore, then it's time to relax and remember to have fun and feel good.

Thanks, Jeannette and all Good Vibe Blog contributors

Have you had any kind of breakthrough in your thought or actions recently? Please share in the comments below. 

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Just Along for the Ride

Every time I feel like our manifestations are happening around us, then something else comes in makes me wonder, okay, what's going on here?

I mentioned before that my husband was up for a job. A good job. A good job making more money than we'd ever made. He interviewed, but then they moved the job to another city. After some discussion, we said we'd move, then nothing more was heard.

Then he was offered a part-time job with the same company, completely out of the blue. And now they're telling him there's a possibility of full-time work in this store.

Our affirmation for the job was a job in our town, paying $10 or more an hour, weekends off, day shift. We neglected to say "full-time", but it seems like that's working itself out :) And there could be a possibility in the future to move closer to hubby's family at another store.

But now I feel like we need to decide if we should continue this path of employment, buying a house, etc. or continue the other path of becoming self-employed, full-time travelers.

I know that there is no right or wrong choice. Both choices are correct. We can do both. We can do neither. We can do one at a time. I guess the answer will be right in front of us when it's time and we'll know what we want to do.

So I'm just along for the ride right now. I know that however it works out, it will be wonderful.

Is there something you've been seeing manifest and you're waiting in expectation to see how GUS will provide? Please share a comment below.